Its like sitting there watching the snow melt

I had a CT scan last week and Monday I get the results.  It really is like sitting there watching the snow melt and wondering if spring will really come.  I'm always hoping for a miracle that the spots on my liver will permanently disappear signaling at least a chance at remission.

My new chemo "cocktail" seems interesting.  I had hoped to have the feeling in my hands return a lot quicker.  They seem number than before.  I dealt with the nausea like a wimp.  There are some meds I can take to ease the nausea but only at the cost of relinquishing my independence as I would not want to drive. Joe would have to chauffeur me around as some of them make me tired or feel out of whack.

On the flip side of life.  My family and friends continue to be my support and each day offer encouragement to keep going - "don't give up".  I heard that 3 times in one week from different folks... "don't give up, keep fighting".  Each day AFTER chemo, I get a little bit stronger (and less whiny) and I think I can do this.